Skip to main content

Heart

I'm a person that tends to live out of my heart. In the Enegram I'm a 3w2 for those that know what that means. I tend to lead and act from my emotions. This has some blessings but also some curses. While I'm often able to pick up on others feelings and tend to be able to sympathize and empathize with others it also means that I tend to take things said to heart, deeply into my heart. To be more specific I tend to take the critics and negative said about me to heart and forget about the postive things or I tend to write them off as just fluff. That's where I find myself as I write this...living in my heart and taking the negative things said to me to heart and feeling the overwhelming urge to ball my eyes out, which I've done several times recently. The energy is off. I wish I could be different at times. Maybe live in my brain. But alas I am who I am, firmly and undeniably rooted in the heart. Sometimes it feels okay to live here and others it doesn't. It does help other heart people notice my energy is off and to know when I need support, encouragement and love - and that is one of the blessings of living in the heart. But today my friends I wish my heart would stop feeling for a bit and that I could rid myself of some of the other "stuff." Living in the heart - a blessing I hope that continues to be revealed.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

A Pastor's Take on Project 2025

It's getting close to the 2024 elections and I'm tired. American society seems to be crumbling, and I feel that regardless of how things play out, it's going "to get real." But nevertheless, it's time for me to speak out on Project 2025. I have tried for months to read the document because I want to be informed. But there is not enough blood pressure medicine in the world to allow me to read it all. It boils my blood, and I argue it should most Christian's as well. When you go to the Project 2025 website it opens with "Project 2025 is a historic movement, brought together by over 100 respected organizations from across the conservative movement, to take down the Deep State and return the government to the people." What is the Deep State? As far as I know there is no Deep State but let's scare people into thinking there is. Who are these 100 respected organizations? They are organizations like the American Family Association, Family Policy All...
Post a Comment
Read more

2024 Wrap Up

 Happy New Year's Eve! 2024 is almost gone as I type this. And it's been ... a year. To whomever may be reading this know this: I'm glad you made it through 2024. You're you and you're here. That's enough. Whether you met your goal/goals or not, you survived. You're still breathing - even if it's hard to do sometimes. I'm proud of you. Keep going. Even if all you can manage is the next minute. Keep going.  Here is my updates and reflection on 2024. The biggest thing for me has been my move and new ministry in Wisconsin. I said goodbye to two lovely rural Nebraska churches in February and started my new ministry in Wisconsin March 1. It was funny that I was actually attending a UCCB meeting in Ohio when I officially met my new conference minister in person on March 1. God has a sense of humor. This past 9 months has been learning about the systems of the church and the community and trying to find my place. I haven't been perfect in this, but I...
Post a Comment
Read more

Stories from Ministry - Things You Can't Make Up

Funerals can bring out the best or the worst in people/families. Here's a story from a funeral that I can't make up. Note that this story is not from my current ministry setting and names and identifying information has been changed. I was asked to officiate a funeral for a family that wasn't connected to a church but wanted a minister. I met with the family before the funeral and learned I was only meeting part of the family and that there was some sort of rift between the adult children. I made a mental note but the family seemed to be okay. Fast forward to the day of the funeral. I arrive half way through the visitation before the service and check in with the funeral home and family and things seem to be okay. It's clear that there's a divide between the children but folks seem to be staying on their respected sides and behaving. The service goes off well and the casket gets loaded into the hearse. Family members get in their vehicles and I get in the hearse wit...
1 comment
Read more