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Freedom and Ego

I finally did something that was probably one of the most life giving things that I could have done for myself in a long while - I turned in my two weeks notice on Wednesday for my current job. While I love my clients and will greatly miss them, I can't stay there any longer. Pieces of my heart and being have been chipped away at by a company that has great potential but can't seem to get it together. There is a huge sense of freedom in this decision but it is coupled with sadness. A lot of the sadness has to do with my ego and me. I'm asking myself the questions of what's going to happen to my clients without me there? Who's going to make sure they stay safe and well taken care of? The answer is that they were taken care of before I got there and they'll be taken care of after I leave. I have to learn to trust the system and that others will step up. I have to trust that my clients will communicate what they want or don't want certain things. This has more to do about me and my ego. I need to let go over the next two weeks and to embrace the freedom and the life giving aspects of this situation.

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