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Getting your $&(! together

There are days when I sit down to write and think I have something to say or share. And then I manage to sit down and it's gone. The energy and the words flee from my body. I get frustrated with that. In reflection upon this common occurrence it's partly because I want to believe that I'm this perfect person - that maybe for a bit I have my $&!% together. But the reality is - I don't. Many clergy, mental health care workers, doctors, etc don't have it together. They probably never have in their lifetimes and they most likely will only see glimpses of what it might look like being "together." I am convinced that there is not 1 person on planet earth, not even the Dali Lama, who has everything together.

So that makes me wonder even more (yes I have spiral thinking processes) - why is it so important to get your stuff together? Why is it key and a sign of how great you are as an individual that you have your life together? It's partly a way for companies to sell us stuff that we think we need. Who really needs a pen with page marker/tabs in it to be organized or to make a note? No one truly does but wouldn't our life be so much better according to commercials to have them. Wouldn't us ladies have an easier life with pens made specially for us gals? I know I survived school without a special lady pen and even if I did have a special pen for me, as a woman, I'm sure it would be stolen by someone.

So back to point - this idea is an illusion. It's not real, and it really doesn't matter. I can still be happy and a more holistic person without being perfectly together. I can still strive to be me in a world that needs more "me's" and less conformity and uniformity. I'm working towards settling into this sense of "it is." Not a sense or desire for it to be something else, just it is. Unique, evolving it is.
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