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October is here

October is here officially, even though it's felt like it for awhile. The trees are changing their colors and the leaves are starting to fall to the ground. There's a beauty in this time of year even though it foreshadows death. The world seems to be slowing down - the days are getting shorter and shorter. The temperature is starting to drop - calling out to me to start taking time to slow myself down and to hibernate and prepare for the winter that's coming.

But fall is also a time for good things - the weather is perfect for a drive into the country to find that cute little orchard, pick up some apples and bake so the house fills with wonderful smells. There's a sense of comfort from having a great warm beverage and being curled up with that favorite sweater, hoodie and/or blanket.

October has been for me a historical time of change. I was ordained this time of year, I moved to where I currently am almost exactly a year ago today. I've started new jobs, left old ones. Many people celebrate birthdays and anniversaries.

I will say that it's a season full of mixed emotions - almost a roller coaster. Memories come and go at various points, both good and bad. While I don't believe in the need to forget, there is a need to learn to acknowledge these experiences and how they impact one's self but to work on letting go of the emotional attachment to these memories. The emotions take so much energy and can really weigh the soul down. It's not an easy process or a particular joyful one but it is important. I pray and wish all love, peace and support as you work on this important work.

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